• 1:44 AM, Friday, August 31, 2007
okay. i must blog this. i cant stand it! you spoilt my day. sucker!you are just a stranger whom i dont even know. your name, your looks. you should be glad that i replied your instant msg. what rights do you have to scold me when we dont even know each other?! okay... you know my name, who am i. but you to me, is a total stranger.
i was in a good mood today. zi high-ed in school during fnn. finally a great day, without sadness. so whose the great one who spoilt my day? YOU! wth. the moment i sign in msn. there was a prompt, saying that i received a msg when i was online. excuse me you are the first one in the world to scold me F WORD! damn it. imagine, the moment you sign in, you saw a msg which says: idiot. f____ you.
the moment i saw the msg i was like, asshole.
ridiculous! the reason why you scold me is because i didnt msg you. please, i didnt msg you because i dont wanna let you have my no.! asshole.
• 12:22 AM, Wednesday, August 29, 2007
:(failed bio by freaking two marks. i have no one to blame, but myself. i know i will fail biology. should i be glad that i got double digits? hurhur. i can only comfort myself by saying that i'm capable of achieving better results, just that i didnt put in enough effort.
its true that i didnt put in much effort. we had national day hols to study, but what was i doing? slacking, wasting my precious time at home. i studied only the day before the test. what is this?!
='(
i regret not making full use of national day hols. my life is just full of regrets=/
i hate myself
all i can do now is muggg. get good grades for EYE. pull up my overall results. i cant afford to retain. i cant!
i shall go do somemore maths now. its like 1221am now, and there is school later=/
i'm such a loser.
• 12:58 AM, Monday, August 27, 2007
why am i always the one?• 11:27 PM, Friday, August 24, 2007
i see the difference between us...• 10:23 PM, Thursday, August 23, 2007
had coursework B execution today. think i did it pretty well, at least it looked like a pandan cake. haha. however, there is no pandan taste, cause i was too lazy to squeeze more pandan juice=/ super tiring k!*mschua likes my cake(:
after execution, a few of us stayed back and talk to mschua. bonding session! lol. i LOVE the talk we had today<3 oh yes! while collecting ingredients today(plain flour). i was so stress, i asked a qns and nobody ans=/ so i was like can someone pls ans me, i'm crying soon=/ i think i'm getting weaker, i'm like crying over the slightest thing. damn it. i have to train myself, i cannot be such a weakly...
its dead,again
• 9:25 PM, Wednesday, August 22, 2007
i realised i've been crying for the past few days, including today=/moday - i teared after chinese, cause i was very stress. i'm still far from my a1 for o'lvl chinese. i really must work on my close passage and compre mcq. i must do well for chinese, cant afford to get b3! i must must must get a1..
tuesday - i cried during reading. cause of some problem, i dont wanna elaborate. but yeah, i cried cause i felt a lil angry, felt unfair for aishah.
today - cried during SEL when we were watching i not stupid. was touched by what the father did. okay.. after that was maths. we got back our paper. well, at least this time is tears of joy. though i didnt pass with very good marks. at least, it is still a pass. there is improvement. i will keep it up. strive for better grades!:D
had chemistry remedial. it was enlightening. i felt there my chemistry is not hopeless. with the help of mskoh, plus my effort, i guess a c5 for eoy should be okay. i'm looking forward to friday's remedial(:
went for trng after that. i think spiking is difficult. i cant get the timing, and my hand is like TOO straight!=/ damn it. i believe i can do it, because i did it before. all i need is time, but i dont have much time left. i need to studyyy, i have to studyyy.
my study plan today/tmr:
- complete indices
- do some trigo revision (if not i cannot catch up)
i still have english hwk to do=/ hope i can complete these two(:
• 12:11 AM, Tuesday, August 21, 2007
okay. i just saw sth. and i was thinking in my heart... WTH? omg! i cant believe it.shall just pretend i saw nothing.
today wasnt a very good day. firstly, my eye hurts like hell during bio prac. i dont know what happen to my contacts, my eye just hurts and it was RED. i ran back to class to get my contacts out. well, that means during bio lesson in class, i was literally B L I N D. i couldnt see anything on the board, plus i have diffculty looking at annette's book too=/
annette, thanks for letting me your bio notes(:
after recess was horrible. mrkhoo told us that our msg for the recent amaths test is 8.0+ which means the average result for our clas is an E8. we only have four passes, and all four scored below twenty, equals to borderline pass. wth.
why are we doing so badly?
before maths lesson today, i was still quite confident of getting at least a pass. i hope mrkhoo will return us our test paper tmr, and hopefully i am one of the four who passed. no matter what, i'm sure i will cry.
fail - too sad, thats why i cry
pass - too happy till i cry
argh!
k. chinese after that wasnt any better. wulaoshi return us the mock papers we did last week. i'm still far from my a1=/ i really have to buck up. i dont wanna drop higher chinese next year! i must score at least an A2.
for the next mock paper, i must score above fifty. well, that means maris paper.
fnn was even worse. after mother tongue lesson, i wasnt in the mood to do anything anymore. cause i was so sad. my chinese sucks!=/ mrs woo told us, every year, WITHOUT FAIL, they have people that retains. i definitely dont want that to happen to me.
NO!
but my results this year are like S H I T! i really dont have much time left. 3weeks to first paper. damn it!
the only happy thing today is the match we watched. THAILAND WON!(: 3-0 thailand no.2 is damn cute. his actions, his expressions, everything! oh my! C U T E! haha. all the players there(thailand/korea), are my idol. they are damn good, like ping-pong. oh my! i was so high during the first match. cause the score was damn close. korea no.1 star player. his spiking is like WOAH!(: okay.. practically all their spiking to me is WOAH! damn good. ahh..!! going crazy again. haha. i regret not gg to rp to watch the matches k!=/
i think thailand's blocking is good, korea's defence is good. their spiking is equally good. lol. okay.. that makes the match exciting(:
ahh...!!! i cant stop thinking abt them. lol. i'm gg crazy over them! i wanna watch them play again again and again!
i doubt i have another chance=/
okay.. i have to calm myself down and get on with me revision=/
• 12:15 AM, Monday, August 20, 2007
gosh! i miss three people a lot. i'm missing them now! why are they? i wanna talk to them, but i dont know when will that be. end of year? hmm..i shouldnt have read charlotte's blog. she makes me emo=/
and so, now i have a qns.
what am i to you?
damn it.
• 11:00 PM, Sunday, August 19, 2007
REPLY TAGS:ANNONYMOUS: thanks. i really have no idea who you are. sorry=/ can you just tell me who you are?
HAOYEE: no i dont. haha. yes. i'm smiling(: yeah. stupid luhh! december! i cant wait to watch kinship2! gosh! they stopped at the most exciting part, and leave me in suspense. i hate this kind of feeling!=/ loveya!
ATHIRAH!: hey. i miss you too!(: gonna cya tmr. hahaha. oh gosh! i hate/scared cockroach can! hahaha. yay! 3P!<3
THE NOBODY: thanks. who are you?(:
JOY: yay! retarded was here. haha! you cheer up k? we must go study at subway soon!(: loveya! *HUMAN BEINGS CAN BE COMPRESSED!:D
MAVIS: hello! yes, haven see your name here for a long long time. haha. okay! one day one tag(: i try. haha. loves.
MELANIE: hey GRANDaunt! haha. loveyou too(: i want those spastic photos!
SHERILYN: yes! haha. whats your blog?
CHARLOTTE: stupid stupid stupid charlotte!!!! HELLO!(: lol. dont get so stressed up, relax! loves.
JASPER: okay. you're missed too.
• 7:11 PM,
i've been quite happy for the past few days. yeah. trng was quite alright, though i know that i'm deteriorating=/ well, at least i enjoyed trng. like finally, i'm enjoying trng again(: i have to improve my skills, i cant drop anymore, i cant afford to, neither can i just stay, and remain. i lost my spiking feel and everything, i cant even receive now=/ my mind is like S L O W! i'm like a retard playing vball=/i have to hit my 75percent. i know i can and i will. jiayou(:
glad that these few days i wasnt thinking too much. guess i dont have the time to. i've been studying for biology and doing revision for amaths. sad to say, i screwed my biology. again, i'm gonna disappoint myself and mrsgay=/ all i hope is that i dont fail badly. for amaths, i'm quite confident to get at least a pass. if i were to fail amaths, i will just cry in class. i'm serious..=/
i've conclude that studying is the best remedy. not only can i improve my grades, i can also keep my mind occupied. thats the only way to stop myself from thinking all those unhappy stuffs. ahh...!! sheesh! i must stop here, if not i will start thinking again.
charlotte, joey, haoyee, thanks for making feel loved(:
(random)
i'm looking forward to tmr(: cause we will be gg to tpy sports hall to watch finals(asian schools volleyball boys championship)
k. i dont feel like blogging anymore. not in the mood.
*i will reply the tags soon. most prob later!(:
• 11:19 PM, Friday, August 10, 2007
REPLY TAGS:CHANTAL: yeah. i was quite angry with some of the comments=/
IRDAYU: yeah. we will heck what the teachers said abt us. lets prove them wrong together(: i love you sexxayye!:D *hello irdayu
KHAIRIAH: yes! and i miss playing solitaire showdown with you! is your com alright alrd? yes. and i cried hell lot, when watching one litre of tears='( loveya!
ANONYMOUS: erm.. yeah. you are?
MATILDA: HELLO! tag more often k? HAHA!:D
CHARLOTTE: (: thanks! i wanna talk to you two on monday k?<3
HAOYEE: yeah. i will(: love you too!:D
LYNETTE: hey sexy legs! i miss you too. in fact all of you are missed!<3
ANNETTE: tootsy! okay! but i cant eat the beefballs=/ you ask me to laugh now, and i really laugh to myself in front of the com like an idiot. all your fault! love you partner(:
• 9:40 PM,
supposed to meet them at queensway today. was abt to board 100 when melanie called and said that they are on the way to cityhall. linxin and i decided to go home. no mood. i went home to watch my one litre of tears while linxin went home to sleep(:didnt shed a single tear this time. finally! haha. cried hell lot on wednesday. cause i went to watch one litre of tears when i'm alrd very sad. dumb dumb.
my plan for later
- study biology
- pack my table
so i'm gonna do just two stuffs ltr. i'm gonna study bio. i know my chem is almost hopeless alrd. so, i can only work on my biology(: i still have amaths. anybody gg to study? or rather. teach me amaths. i dont wanna flunk maths again...
*love me or hate me? pls tell me...
• 3:53 PM, Thursday, August 09, 2007
it is stupid to watch one litre of tears when you are alrd sad.okay.. that was what i did yesterday night. i watched one litre of tears dvd brother borrowed for me.
i couldnt stop crying.
damn it.
*thanks for letting me know who is more important. your actions gave me the answer.
• 3:49 PM,
linxin, lijie, aina, adeline, melaine<3i had a great day yesterday. at kfc/tauhuay shop. i love you people!
• 8:34 PM, Wednesday, August 08, 2007
maybe i should just resign(:• 10:46 PM, Tuesday, August 07, 2007
well, school didnt start off well today. was late for 30SECS! since i'm alrd late for school, i shouldnt have rush, i should take my own sweet time and stroll to school(:hmm... okay.. but after that i got quite excited, as this is the first time i'm getting a late slip. LOL!
i'm proud of myself today, because i understand maths and chem(: at least i learnt sth in school today. this makes me more interested in learning, and i'm looking forward to school. unfortunately, there is no lessons tmr:(
i think i'm more hardworking now. thats a good thing(: i make sure i learn sth in school. I DONT GO TO SCHOOL JUST TO WASTE TIME! if i wanna waste time, i jolly well stay at home and sleep!
argh! why i am like this?!?! i gets emo whenever i'm alone:( i'm afraid of loneliness, who knows? sad to say. nobody:"(
i'm glad i have charlotte and joey in class. whenever i'm with them, i feel happy. at least i feel that i still have someone out there who cares for me. i feel loved. thankyou<3
linxin, i had a great time playing ball with you. thanks(: you dont think too much too!:D
i dont feel like gg on.. i'm afraid i will cry=/
• 12:52 AM, Sunday, August 05, 2007
had a great day with stupid gonggong dumbdumb spastic RETARDED joy foo yingying. hahastudied at marina subway. quite productive today. we didnt talk much, we were both concentrating. revising chem(: and when we talk, we dont talk rubbish! we discuss chem(: haha. understand most of the mole concepts stuff. asked joy lotsa of things. i'm gonna spend my whole afternoon revising chem tmr(: i'm determined to do well this time. i MUST get at least a B3 this time. i need to pull up my overall chem results. my previous chem test was horrendous, it pulled down my overall. that sucks=/ i dont wanna fail terribly k! jiayou(:
joy, jiayou too! get your A1!(:
well, subway was exceptionally crowded today. cause of npd @ marina bay. yeah. joy was late by abt half an hour, cause last min(right before she gonna leave hse) sth cropped up. yeah. while waiting for her, i did some maths hwk. SOME! only like a few qns=/ cause i realised i dont know how to do it. i tried to complete my modulus hwk on friday night too. as usual, STUCKED! wanted to refer to my notes, only then i noticed that half of my notes is B L A N K! gosh.
i need someone to teach me modulus=/
after studying, we went to marina sq. within abt forty-five mins. joy bought seven pairs of earrings(one of it is free), one jacket, two necklaces. i must stop her from spending money like that! haha.
i need to chiong cw now!
*ACCORDING TO JOY'S LAW, HUMAN BEINGS CAN BE COMPRESSED!(:
